Last night we had a big dinner in honor of Hayden's 19th birthday. We had lots of company, including two of his best friends, his girlfriend Ashley, and her family. His request: pineapple chicken and banana bread. So I made a banana sheet cake for him.
I wish I had time to write the story of Hayden's life for you. He was born early. Due Feb 19th, but arrived on the 6th, impatient to get on with LIFE!. I remember how proud I was to have two beautiful little boys. And how I wondered what in the world the future would hold for our (then) little family.
I wish I had time to upload the videos of him growing up. Every time I watch them, tears run down my face. What a kind, gentle and curious little boy he always was. My heart is so full of memories of the little boy that he was.
I wish I had time to tell you how he puts his whole heart into a thing. If he's going to do something, he's going to do it right. He's got high standards for himself, and he expects the same from others. I see so much of his dad in him!
Nineteen years ago I was holding a baby boy in my arms and today he's in Williamsport taking his ASVABs, hoping to go into the Air Force and later become a state trooper. If I know Hayden, he'll give it 110%.
I wish I had time. Just a little more time. To hold the boy he used to be. People love to tell you they grow up fast, and I took that to heart since the day each of them were placed into my arms. I believed the years would go by in the blink of an eye. So, I did look close while they were growing up. I paid attention to every little thing about them. Their eyelashes and their freckles. Because even as a young mom, I knew that someday I'd be here today, looking back on it from the other side. A not-as-young mom, watching them become men.